Tuesday, December 25, 2007

The Gift

Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. Luke 2:11 (NIV)

The grandgirlies were up and chatting around 5 AM, ready to start the day; but all the adults voted no. It was hard to keep them from waking each other and staying quiet since they are all sleeping in the same room having given up the comfort of their own rooms to the rest of us. But peace reigned for a couple of more hours after Mom laid down the rules and they drifted back to sleep. It is customary in our house that the children may come out to see the tree once they hear the strains of Christmas carols. The air is always filled with their excitement as they impatiently wait for the music. Calls down the stairs to check if we are ready are routine. It is so hard to wait! But finally, the tree lights are shining, the fire is lit, cameras are ready and the coffee is on. It is time! Just think how Mary and Joseph must have felt that first Christmas morning. As they gazed into the face of that sleeping baby, the wonder of the miracle that had just happened along with the responsibility that goes with a new baby must have overwhelmed them. Our little girls arrived with big eyes and bright smiles and began the much loved tradition of taking turns to open their presents—oohing and ahhing after each followed with thank you’s and lots of hugs and kisses. After a while, each one drifted off to her own corner to check out her stash more thoroughly leaving the floor littered with paper, ribbons, tape, cards, and boxes. I know that after a couple of weeks, the newness will wear off and they will struggle to remember who gave them what. But I imagine the young family in Bethlehem was excited, too. They didn’t have all the trappings that we are used to. In fact, they only had one gift. But this Present, wrapped in swaddling clothes, was the greatest Gift of all. He was destined to be our Savior and would make a difference that would echo through all the ages. My heart swells with emotion as I watch those that I love enjoy this special day. But I am even more grateful that these little girls understand that the little baby Jesus is the reason we say, Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Answers

As soon as I pray, you answer me;
you encourage me by giving me strength.
Psalm 138:3 (NLT)

This verse leaped out at me this morning. Over the past few weeks, I have had a couple of specific prayer requests that I have earnestly prayed about but I don't feel like I am getting any answers. And it has been discouraging. Day after day passes with no apparent change in the situations. But this verse says that "as soon as I pray," He answers. So where is the disconnect? As I pondered, I realized it is with me. I want Him to answer my requests—my way—on my time schedule. Yes, He promises to hear, answer, and give me strength and encouragement…but in HIS time frame. I have no idea what is going on in the heavenlies or behind the scenes. The battle is raging and I am on a need-to-know basis about all of it. I guess I don't need to know yet. The part that was new to me is that in those periods of waiting, He will encourage me by giving me strength. Rather than whining and complaining, I can watch with great expectation for what He is going to do. In our day and age, we have come to expect that an episode of life can be resolved in an hour, a cup of tea heats in 60 seconds, and a message can be sent in seconds over the Internet. But actually, none of that means anything in the time frame of God. As C. S. Lewis says in The Great Divorce, "This moment contains all moments." One day, our eyes will be opened and we will see the back-lot staging of our lives. For now, be encouraged.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Upside Down

Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. Ephesians 3:17-18 (NLT)

I completed the Believing God study this week with a sense of gratitude for all that I have learned yet with a letdown feeling that it is over. I don't remember a time of study where I have been more stretched. We were challenged to look at our belief systems to determine what is true and to hold fast to those, letting others go. I think the most important thing that I learned was that faith is active – I'm believing God –not I believe in God. I learned from the illustration of our father, Abraham, who believed God in an impossible situation. It was faith that made the difference and that was what God was looking for and rewarded. Reading Romans 4 for twenty times made that fact crystal clear. I know I can pray specifically knowing that He answers me even if it is not in MY time frame; I can already thank Him for what He is going to do. We looked at the promises that are outlined in the shield of faith, giving us tools to fight the evil forces in our world. My whole mind-set was turned upside down. Our final assignment was to draw and place the rocks of remembrance of our life on a timeline so that we could see how God had been directing us – even when we were unaware of His footsteps. This was not an easy task for two reasons; some things happened a long time ago and it was hard to remember. The other was I had to face how my wrong choices affected my life. But the best part was seeing God's mercy and love even when I wanted my own way. He was there. He was patient. He nudged me in the right way. I can only say thank you, LORD! I'm believing God.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Full Circle

The people crossed the Jordan on the tenth day of the first month. Then they camped at Gilgal, just east of Jericho. It was there at Gilgal that Joshua piled up the twelve stones taken from the Jordan River. Then Joshua said to the Israelites, “In the future your children will ask, ‘What do these stones mean?’ Then you can tell them, ‘This is where the Israelites crossed the Jordan on dry ground.’" Joshua 4: 19-22 (NLT)

For the past two weeks, in the Believing God study, we looked at the story of Joshua and the children of Israel at Gilgal. Gilgal means "circle" and illustrates the full circle necessary for the nation of Israel to complete before entering the Promised Land. This week has been a kind of Gilgal for me in several ways. Although busy, I have enjoyed the stuff of Christmas. Last year is just a blur in my mind since it was so dominated by my mother's fall and final graduation…it was actually on this very day. But this year I made four kinds of Christmas cookies, mailed out Christmas cards (even with a letter since life has been so crazy), had friends over, and enjoyed being invited to friends for dinner. My heart was lifted once again as we enjoyed a wonderful concert, given in our community by a group called The Gatekeepers. Fourteen young people, with talents both vocally and instrumentally, delighted us with the traditional carols and sacred music of the season. We stood to our feet, rejoicing together in praise, as they performed the "Hallelujah Chorus" from Handel's Messiah. Yes, the miracle of life was given to us in the birth of the baby Jesus, the King of Kings and LORD of Lords. It feels good to have some of the traditional activities back, however, I have a much better understanding of the real substance of Christmas. Jesus is the one who took hold of my hand last year in my grief and held on while He led me along many paths this year. I am so thankful that I have His promise that I will never have to walk alone. If things get too hectic and the joy is missing in your home, remember that Gilgal represented a new beginning. Start over…today…and join in the hope and wonder of Christmas.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Treasures


But Mary treasured all these things, pondering them in her heart. Luke 2:19 (NASB)
In my last post I wrote about my speaking gig at my church's Advent Tea. Each hostess decorated her own table and I mentioned that I had to find some decorations to use on mine. I have included a picture of my table with some of the Christmas trees collected from all over the world. We are headed into a very busy time of year. So take a few minutes to reflect and give thanks for the gift of the baby Jesus, pour yourself a cup of tea, and click on "Listen to my Christmas Podcast" in the left hand column. May the Prince of Peace bless you today.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Power and Strength

He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Isaiah 40:29 (NLT)

I received one of my regular email devotions a couple of mornings ago, which had this verse at the top of the page and I knew immediately that it was from God to me. It has been a busy week culminating with my last speaking gig of the year yesterday afternoon. It was not as if I was unprepared because I have been working on my talk for several weeks. But life got in the way with Thanksgiving and Dad visiting us for a few days. After taking him to the airport, I dug into preparations for the event. Part of my talk included some of my Christmas decorations so I had to unpack them and that led to decorating the house. It was crazy! And in the middle of all this was our Believing God study. (We learned about Gilgal; I still have some thinking and processing over this one but it stirred me in amazing ways. Stay tuned.) I was up early and to bed late. When I woke with that headache on Wednesday, this verse described exactly how I was feeling—weak and powerless. But it also provided the antidote for those feelings—He was the one with the power and strength. And the best part was that He would give it to me. I am convinced that the enemy was sitting on my shoulder whispering in my ear that I could not do it. But God is mightier and able to squash him like a bug and He sent me His message of encouragement and promise that He would handle it. I am happy to report that God was the speaker yesterday; I was just the earthen vessel as we shared encouragement and hope for this Christmas season. As you enter into this busy time, remember that all the festivities, decorations, parties, and presents are just stuff. Spend some time reflecting on that Baby born so long ago—just for you!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

He is GOOD

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good!
His faithful love endures forever.
Psalm 118:1 (NLT)

One thing I have noticed while reading through the Bible this year is that if God says the same thing more than once, it must be important to Him and to me. When I looked up the word "thanks" in biblegateway.com, the verse I quote today was mentioned several times in various books throughout the Bible. Is it because He really wants to make the point or is it because I don't get it? Probably a little bit of both. A thankful heart is a learned behavior. Remember those days of telling your toddler to say "thank you" and wondering if she would ever get it? Because of the selfishness and pride of Adam and Eve, we all suffer from "me-ness". Yet, after just celebrating a national holiday of Thanksgiving, how did your family fare? Some of the ways that I like to share that God is good is to have a table full of friends and family join us for dinner. There is something about sitting down together, singing the Doxology, and sharing a meal that has been made by many hands. The love and conversation that flows smoothes the rough edges of life and we see clearly the hand of God. A year ago, my mother fell on Thanksgiving Day and hit her head. Three weeks later, she was gone. My dad has joined us for this week and we were talking about all the changes this year has brought. Yet, God is good. I am reminded of how we see God's fingerprints in the rear-view mirror of our life. I could never have planned all the changes and ultimate solutions for my dad but God had it all under control. There are times when I fret because I don't know what tomorrow will bring or more likely, would prefer to control my destiny. But God is good. He brings me just what I can handle and gives me grace to get through it. So, I will give thanks to HIm, for He is GOOD.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Amazing Freedom

So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free. John 8:36 (NLT)

I am on sensory and spiritual overload having returned last night from an Amazing Freedom, Women of Faith Conference. We were all ages, stages, sizes, and shapes sharing together in laughter and tears. And to top it off, I had the privilege of listening and watching Beth Moore – live – at the pre-conference. Now that is one highly caffeinated woman! In explaining her use of toilet paper as a filter for her coffee pot in her hotel room, she said, "I drink coffee in the morning to calm down!" Amen!!! (Don't ask me why she couldn't use a regular filter.) This was a first for me so if you have never attended one of these conferences, be sure and check it out for next year. I laughed until my sides ached listening to Anita Renfrow while at other times, tears rolled down my cheeks as I listened to the stories of pain and triumph shared by several of the speakers. I ended up using a lot of Kleenex. God was in that place along with 11,000 women and we all left rejoicing that our Heavenly Father has given us amazing freedom to know Him, to walk in the way He leads, and to be one of the many daughters of His Kingdom. I wondered why we did not have paper to take notes but I quickly discovered why. It was all I could do to just take it in. A whole new run begins next February with the theme of Infinite Grace. Be sure and put it on your To-do list and take a girlfriend…or a whole bunch.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Words, words, words

With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. James 3:9-10 (NIV)


This week's Believing God study has challenged me to think about the words I use. We read that the tongue is not easily tamed. Just listen to the torrent of words spilling from a two year old learning to talk...you just shake your head and wonder where they heard all of them. They listen to you! What are you saying when you talk to your husband, friend, neighbor, or on the phone? What kind of language is pouring out of the TV or videos? How do siblings speak to each other? Remember the last time you just had to spread some good gossip…tell an off-color joke…maybe even use words that are offensive? If you listen to the news, it was impossible to miss the recent story of Duane "Dog" Chapman and the firestorm that erupted over some words he used in a private phone call. He suffered immediate consequences for those off-hand remarks. I'm sure I would not want all my conversations broadcast on the TV for the entire world to hear. My comments may only hit an audience of one rather than the whole country but they can be no less harmful. Now that we have a heads up about the tongue's willful ways, it is time to inventory our speech patterns. Habits die hard but they are not impossible to break. It takes desire, perseverance, and the help of the Holy Spirit to change our conversation to words of praise. But it IS possible. The good news is that this is not a surprise to our Heavenly Father. He knows the thoughts and intents of our hearts and is ready, willing, and very able to help us make the changes we know He wants for us. Take a few moments to pray and ask for gentle nudges before you open your mouth. Choose words that are of good report and will encourage rather than tear down. Speak in love to those around you and know that God hears and blesses you in your efforts to speak well.

Monday, November 5, 2007

By faith...

By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient. Hebrews 11:31 (NIV)

Take a walk down the Hall of Faith as described in Hebrews 11 and notice the faces on the featured portraits. If I was the curator and given the task to name the award winning few, I am not sure I would have chosen this bunch. These characters all had portions of their lives that they would like to forget…or at least not broadcast for the whole world to know. For example, deception and manipulation defined him yet by refusing to bow to convention and rejecting similar manipulation at the end of his life, Jacob/Israel is described as a man of faith. Joseph spent many years in captivity in Egypt but with faith, he left a vision of hope, prosperity, and freedom back in the promised land for his family. Timid, afraid, weak and self-absorbed, Moses was transformed by God into the leader of a great and mighty nation. Rahab, though a prostitute, was given a scarlet cord guaranteeing her life and safety because of her act of faith and kindness to the spies and later even married into the royal line of Jesus. Their faith walk made the difference in their lives and redeemed each one. And why are these the stories God chose to share? Because, each story could be our story and there is nothing too hard for God. Believing that God can do what he says He can do (as Beth Moore prompts us to say) gives us hope for our future and those of our families. They were certainly a rag tag bunch but they managed to turn the world upside down because of their faith. Imagine what He has in mind for us! I'm believing God!!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Get the Book

Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do. Joshua 1:8 (NLT)

I'm a MAC person and yesterday, Mark installed the new operating system, Leopard, on my computer. He is definitely the geek in the family but I am fairly competent with the computer and usually can manage fairly well. Yet, this was a big change and now I have several applications that don't work because they have not been upgraded for compatibility. Big pain! So I have to either work around them or wait for the updates. I am so thankful that God's gift of salvation comes with all the applications ready to go. And with the "install," I have the Holy Spirit to guide me, pray for me when I can't, explain to me verses that before seemed incomprehensible, and give me special gifts that will enable me to shine the light of Jesus to those around me. Even when I get in the way of what He is trying to do, God does not find a work-around. Instead, He works with me to gently prod me along His path, sets me straight if I need a course correction, and always picks me up when I stumble and fall. But the reminder for today is: just as I still need to read the manual to learn how these new programs now work, I must also study God's Word for my daily instructions. Our verse challenges us to meditate on it day and night so that we "get it." We've all struggled to figure out a problem and finally, when all else fails, pulled the manual out. Let's change our habits and do it first. He is right there with the answer and promises success. Go get the Book!

Monday, October 29, 2007

S T R E T C H !

Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you. Psalm 25:3-5 (NLT)

I have a very talented husband and an energetic friend, Stan, who encourage me to do and be more than I ever thought possible. Their prodding echoes what I am learning this fall with the help of Beth Moore's Bible study, Believing God. I have felt for some months that God is calling me to do some speaking for Him and share God's story in my life. These guys continually push and prod me to get at it. Sometimes I just wish for a Cinderella existence—a fairy tale ending—without all the work. But if you think about it, Cinderella had her problems, too. In fact, she lived in a dysfunctional household with sisters who mistreated her; life was not fair. Yet as in all good fairy tales, it ended with the handsome Prince sweeping her off to the castle to be his bride. My life is hardly a fairy tale but I want the reality of Jesus to be seen in me and His glory reflected on my face. For you see, I will be His bride some day and carried off to His glorious home, heaven. So now we are working to update my website and blog with screencasts (as I said, Mark is very skilled in all of this!) Of course the prodders told me they were just doing a sound and screen check for future recording. Next time I will think a little more about the background details! Check it out in the left margin of the blog under Links. I am constantly amazed at the opportunities God gives us to serve Him. Be ready for a little stretching!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Rear-view Mirror

But forget all that—
it is nothing compared to what I am going to do.
For I am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness.
I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.
Isaiah 43:18-19 (NLT)

Call it women's intuition—or more likely the leading of the Holy Spirit—but I knew that last week Mark and I were supposed to head out on different journeys. We do not normally travel separately but he needed to go to Tennessee to visit his family, so I decided to sneak in a quick trip to California to see the girlies. When the plans were made, we did not anticipate either set of family having any special needs. Yet, in the middle of it all, we both knew that this was definitely where God wanted each of us to be. We were able to be there for those that we love and spend time loving on them…even if it was only to go to a favorite lunch place or lend a listening ear. This trip reminded me of a comment made by our pastor at a recent church retreat. He encouraged us to look for God's purpose and plan for each of us in the rear-view mirror of life. How often do we fret in the midst of the daily grind about the details of our purpose and plans? It is only in hindsight that we see the twists and turns necessary to bring us to the path God wants us to travel. I am so thankful that He is there to guide me…and sometimes He allows a backward glance of where I have been as a praise and glory to His name.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Cheerleaders!

Dear friends, since God loved us that much, we surely ought to love each other. 1 John 4:11 (NLT)


It was wonderful to speak to the Pantano MOPS group this week. The enthusiasm was contagious as you entered a room filled with young moms and watched them chattering with each other, filling plates with food, and helping each other to make a craft around the tables. I spoke to them about five different relationships we share as women using stories from the Bible: mother and daughter, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, sisters, cousins, and friends. These relationships help fill the emotional gaps in our lives, encourage us to be more than we think we can be, and allow us to be God with skin on for each other. It is never perfect but then we aren’t either. Yet, there is nothing like a girlfriend to unburden the cares or sorrow of our days or rejoice with us in the unexpected surprises or blessings that come our way. Let's be each other’s cheerleaders and companions in our walk to know God; it is so much easier with a friend!

Monday, October 8, 2007

Drip Systems

He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.
Jeremiah 17:8 (NIV)

I spent time with the gardener this weekend, analyzing and fixing the problem areas of the flowerpots and landscape. This appears to be an ongoing process. Drip systems are a definite challenge for me, especially since I never used them in California. The heat of Arizona demands a regular watering schedule but adding to the mix is the different types of plants and ground cover that grow well in the desert. It makes the drip system the most sensible choice but I have not yet figured out how to repair or redirect the water when I have a problem. Critters wander in and bite the tubing, plants decide to just up and die for no apparent reason, drip emitters clog up, and then there are the mysteries of the timer. But my biggest frustration is getting water to the edges of my pots so that all the new plants get a drink. I have replaced more bits of color in my pots because they have withered up in the heat. Hopefully, we have solved the problems and all is well—for now! This helps me understand why our Lord explains that we need to be like trees planted near the water. All my efforts to care for my little plant root systems and get them established in my pots are useless until I figure out the watering problem. The same holds true in my life. I want the water of the Holy Spirit to refresh my heart in those dry areas of my life—frustration, fatigue, or fear. I don't want anxiety to squelch my fruitfulness or purpose. Remember to plant yourself near the water of the Word. Let your roots sink deep into the love and security of the Father who made you. I am looking forward to watching you bloom and flourish!

Friday, October 5, 2007

Monsoon vs. Whisper

"Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. And a voice said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” 1 Kings 19:11-13 (NLT)


I love it when the seasons change and the Fall activities start up again. Living in the desert has the quirkiness of "snow birds," or folks that leave the heat of summer for parts cooler. They take off in late Spring, leaving us with less traffic and easy access to the restaurants. But I notice that they have recently begun returning. We are full time residents and I can't imagine that lifestyle because I enjoy all of the seasons here, including the monsoons. Being a California girl, watching the slash of lightning, followed by booms of thunder and driving rain is a show in itself. And then it stops. The sun returns, the temperature increases and dries the runoff of water, and life resumes after the spectacular light show. I have discovered that God shows His power in the wind and rain but He is also present in the still small voice. Tonight I am speaking to a local group of women and I pray that I will listen to that gentle whisper so that my words will tell of the grace and glory of my Heavenly Father. He is the one that calms the storms in our life even when the thunder seem to drown out His voice. He leads us through the narrow way when life gets rough and the rushing water threatens to overcome us. He sent his Son to shine light and life in the darkness in our souls. He is my answer to the whirlwinds that threaten to cause fear, distraction, or danger. I can count on Him to give me peace, joy, and hope...sometimes with just a whisper.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Missing the Party

You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 23:5-6 (NLT)

Oh, have I created a firestorm with my granddaughters! And I thought it would be no big deal. My youngest is turning three this weekend and I won't be there for her birthday party. As much as I wanted to be there, I have some commitments that make it impossible. The problem is that this is the first birthday that I have missed for any of the girls and the older two are completely undone causing the little one to decide that I just didn't want to come. Talk about sticking the knife in my heart and then twisting it!!! The fact that we took her shopping at Build-a-Bear over Labor Day does not count, or that I am flying out in the middle of October to see them. But I will not be there on THE DAY. Yet, how often do we do this very same thing with our Lord? He gives us good gifts every day but if we don't get what we want—when we want it, we are more likely to whine and complain than to be grateful and remember how faithful He has been to us. A favorite Psalm reminds us that He is there to bless us, even in the presence of our enemies. And He is not done showering us with those blessings but will continue through our entire life until we finally join Him at His house for the big party. I have sent the presents and will call Allie on her big day. I will tell her how much I love her and am with her in spirit. Isn't it nice to know that our Heavenly Father does this for us every day?

Friday, September 21, 2007

Old and New

A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need. Proverbs 17:17 (NLT)

We have new neighbors that moved in about a month ago. That really isn't news because we live in a community where people have moved here from all over the country in the last three years. But this couple is our closest neighbor, given that there are still three empty lots between us. We had them over this week for a get-acquainted time and discovered many points of contact in our lives. Making friends takes time and energy. With some friends, it is easy to pick up where you left off, almost as if there had never been a separation of time or distance. But I have found that the ability to do that requires the hard work of establishing the friendship through time spent together, shared activities, and similar interests. But there are definitely seasons of friendship – no matter what the age or stage in life. I have friends that I can call day or night that have been walking life's path with me for over 35 years. They take me just as I am and I know with certainty that they will be there for me tomorrow. Others pass through my life and while thoroughly enjoying the friendship, the demands of daily living, change of vocation or avocation, marital status, or moving create distance that often ends with the fading away of the connection. There has been no conflict – just no contact. And now we are in the new stage era, again. My young granddaughters know the feeling of being the new kids in their school. Who do you play with at recess? Who will be my friend? Our move to Arizona means we are the newbies, too. Maybe that is one of the reasons that I wanted our new neighbors over now; I know how it feels to be on the outside looking in. Yet, even with difficult year we experienced, God has graciously given us a sense of belonging in our community with new friends that are gradually becoming old friends! Thank you, Lord.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Living Water

Jesus said, "Everyone who drinks this water will get thirsty again and again. Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life." John 4:14 (The Message)

Impressions: larger than life, crowds of people, huge hotels, continuous sounds of buzzers and bells, the street lit up year round, and fantastic shows. People of all ages, nationalities, style, and income visit this city with high hopes for their future. Where? Las Vegas, of course. But I failed to list the little old lady plucking another quarter out of her bucket and sliding it into the shot machine, a bored expression on her face. I watched a young black man, whirl up from his chair in disbelief as the dealer raked in his chips at the card table…again. The lingering smell of stale smoke permeates the air and dirty glasses litter the tables. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a man sitting by the side of the road on a big rock, stoned from alcohol or drugs. I know, too, the unseen is even harsher and evil. So why was I there? I wanted to see and hear Celine Dion before she leaves her gig. I don't gamble so we spent our time people watching, walking, taking it all in, avoiding the casinos. We played games, saw a movie, ate out – all the things you do on vacation. However, I wonder what God sees when He looks over that vast city? Does it remind Him of Sodom and Gomorrah? Are there local people, called to be salt and light, making a difference for the kingdom? It is called Sin City but I was curious and checked the Las Vegas Facts noting that there are more than 500 churches and synagogues, which far outnumbers all the big hotels and casinos. I pray that those people of faith will minister to the lost and lonely souls that we observed and offer them the satisfying water of life that Jesus gives. Instead of packing the empty holes in their hearts with the earthly thrills of Vegas, they will be filled to the brim with something even greater and longer lasting—eternal life. I enjoyed the time with friends and the shows were great but as we drove home, I knew that it would be many years before we make that trek again. I much prefer the streams in my desert—streams of Living Water.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Life's Mementoes

Honor and enjoy your Creator while you're still young,
Before the years take their toll and your vigor wanes,
Before your vision dims and the world blurs
And the winter years keep you close to the fire.
Ecclesiastes 12:1-2 (The Message)

Solomon, the Teacher, is the author of the book of Ecclesiastes. Have you read it lately? Many of his comments remind me of the sad state of our culture and world today. He was a prophet in his time and ours. He closes out this book with today's passage. After spending the past weekend going through 40 years of the stuff of life at my parent's home, I know that the years do take their toll. I learned the history of my parents in ways that I have never known as we opened drawers and cleaned off shelves. An autograph book from teen years, a wedding dress lovingly folded in a box, scrapbooks, and pictures spelled out new stories in my mother's life. We found an old box in the garage with Boy Scout memorabilia from my dad's early years, locked cabinets with Navy uniforms, tools, and more pictures. Our task did not give us much time to linger with our time sensitive goal to get the house ready to sell looming over us, but I did spend a few moments pondering those early years and the choices they made in life's journey. I wonder what kinds of things my girls will find when they have the task of cleaning out my cabinets? Will they be surprised like I was, or will they say, "Oh, I remember this"? My desire is to be transparent with the good things I have experienced but also, to share the not-so-good parts because those are the times when God met me and lead me carefully over the rough path. Hopefully, my mementoes, pictures, files, writings, and journals will reveal a life filled with promise, failure, success, adventures, family, friends, and hope; hope in the One who as my Creator gave me many days filled with His presence as I trusted Him.

Monday, August 27, 2007

First Day of School

You can see the excitement on their faces. New second grader Kate, and Tori, a kindergarten newbie, pose for their first-day-of-school pictures. You go, girlies!

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Integrity

People with integrity walk safely, but those who follow crooked paths will slip and fall. Proverbs 10:9 (NLT)

“She looks just like her mother.” “I can see her dad’s dimple.” “”She is going to be tall like her Nana.” How many times do we speculate, either in our minds or with others, about how our children or grandchildren will turn out? Some things are easy to see since certain physical characteristics show up at birth but others take time and maturity to fully develop. Two of my granddaughters start school tomorrow. If they did not have the same last name, you probably would not put them together as sisters. In fact, all three girls definitely have there “own look.” But these little girls will use their own particular strengths, personality, and family training to tackle the challenges of school. I loved school and did well. It would make me feel good to hear someone say, “She does well in school, just like her Nana.” Upon reflection, however, if I could choose a gift to give these girls that would last longer than an “A” on a test or popularity among their friends, it would be integrity – the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles. The challenges they will face on life’s path with its twists and turns, will be so much easier to navigate if each girl pursues fairness, honor, and good character rather that popularity and a good time. Do you remember when they used to give grades for citizenship along with academics? As a mother, those "needs improvement" marks got my attention faster than any low grade...just ask my son. Yes, I am excited for the new school year to start for my girlies. My daily prayer is that they stay near to God’s heart and be known for their integrity.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Spot Cleaning

What this means is that those who become Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, for the old life is gone. A new life has begun! 2 Corinthians 5:17 (NLT)

My two month wait finally over, Alex, the painter, has been here all week. His job, as part of the warranty on the house, is to do the paint touch up work both inside and out. I am thrilled to get this work done so that I can remove all the blue masking tape that has dotted the house. But do you know what I have discovered? Every time he comes and makes a sweep through the house, I find more areas that need his quick, sure touch. Clean, fresh paint highlights areas I never noticed and the next thing I know, more blue masking tape. I am sure he thinks he will never be done with this project. Have you found that your life can be like the walls in my house, always in need of repair with just one more spot to clean up? Just when you think you have everything under control, out peeks a loose string in your life that needs to be cut or tucked away! We try out best to clean up our act but somehow it is never enough. Ever been on a diet? If you have, I would imagine, it was not your first. We dress to camouflage our perceived weak spots, use make-up to hide the blemishes, color our hair to hide the gray. Such actions may cover the outside but what about the inside? Negative emotions and attitudes are harder to hide and change. Too often we adopt unhealthy responses because the pain inside is too great to handle and we can’t find a way to escape; anorexia and bulimia are good examples. Anger, depression, compulsions, and withdrawal are manifestations of the dark places in our heart and soul. We try and put on a happy face but it doesn’t last. Let me assure you that the only way to get the job done once and for all is to give it to the Master, the One who made us and knows all of our parts. Sin gets in the way and messes with our lives. Yet, Jesus offers us new life, without spot or blemish. Only the grace and forgiveness that comes from repentance and acceptance on our part can make us whole and clean. Finally, no more spot cleaning...it is all done!

Monday, August 20, 2007

Curve Balls

So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone—especially to those in the family of faith. Galatians 6:9-10 (NLT)

Weary, tired, exhausted, worn out, fatigued, sapped, spent: pick a word and you've got me. We spent last week moving my dad into an assisted living facility. His mind and hearing are as acute as ever but his body and vision are failing making it impossible to continue to live alone. He gave the family a huge gift with his willingness and acceptance – even excitement about this move. But his limited physical state left the bulk of the work to us. Knowing him, the hardest part was watching us dismantle the house that he has lived in for 41 years and not being able to do one thing about it. Life brings us curve balls and he commented more than once that he never expected to be in this position. We all face unexpected challenges. It might be an illness, a job loss, a sick child, or a mine or bridge collapse. How do I handle this crisis? There are times when we can barely hang on for grief. Other times, we roll up our sleeves and get busy. But each trial gives us the opportunity to take the steps of faith acknowledging our trust in the One who made us. I know that I have prayed, more than once, complaining to my Father about a particular test or challenge. Yet, it is during those intense times, that I feel His comfort and understanding deep in my soul and know that He is walking right beside me...I will trust Him. I have a real sense of peace that Dad is now in a good place and I know that soon he will be calling it home.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

New Season

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven…
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NIV)
We head out tomorrow for Southern California to spend the week with my dad. All the family, young and old alike, are looking forward to sharing this special time of celebration of his 85th birthday. The kids will spend the weekend camped out all over his house. (We are staying with a neighbor and have a real bed!) Dinner is planned at his favorite restaurant on Saturday night and Allie has her mom making the birthday cake. And yes, there is a time for everything because the other task for the week is to help him move into assisted living. Eight months of living alone, unable to drive due to poor vision, dependent on so many for even the smallest things, has left him feeling like he was under house arrest. It is time to move…and he is excited about it. As the generation in the middle – sometimes called the sandwich generation – I have had to learn about things I never knew I needed to know. I get calls from him for help and sometimes the calls come from my children. However, God has been gracious to give me a window of stability in my life so that I can be available to my family. I am so thankful that He is there walking with me along this uncharted path because this is a season for change…for all of us.

Monday, August 6, 2007

No worries!

The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? Proverbs 20:24 (NLT)

I have been known to fret on occasion, particularly over uncontrollable things. The result of all this fretting or worry is usually nothing; it doesn't change the outcome and it steals my joy. I like to know the whys of life but I find that God usually works on a need-to-know basis. And most of the time, I don't need to know. This past year has been a tough one. Health issues, moving, death, job loss, aging parents, and pain have dominated the life of our family. However, on occasion God pulls the veil away to show me a glimpse of His plan. Ah-Ha! I get it! I have had a few of those, too, and while it strengthens my trust in Him I cannot expect Him to answer all my questions on my time frame. Yes, I see His hand in my past but I trust Him for my future because He promises to always lead me, to direct my footsteps, and to care for me along the way. No worries!

Sunday, August 5, 2007

The Lord alone is God!

My daily reading through the Bible continues and it has been such a blessing! I did not expect to enjoy and appreciate it as much as I am or realize how timely it would be given the current events in the Middle East. I have been fascinated to read about the kings of both Israel and Judah. Usually the first or second line of the text lists the name of the newly crowned king and whether they walked in the good or evil footsteps of their father. I wonder what those boys were thinking when they heard the stories of God's exact instructions on how to live and worship; then they watched their dad build altars to false gods, worship them, and follow all the pagan ways of their enemies. God was quick to discipline these foolish kings with defeat, destruction, and captivity by their enemies. He was not about to protect or promote a leader that shook his fist in His face and turned from Him. Yet, over and over again, when faced with certain defeat and death, this same foolish leader would repent and ask for forgiveness and God graciously gave it. As angry as God was with this man, He loved him even more and wanted to give him life not death. Listen to this record from God's Word:

The Lord spoke to Manasseh and his people, but they ignored all his warnings. So the Lord sent the commanders of the Assyrian armies, and they took Manasseh prisoner. They put a ring through his nose, bound him in bronze chains, and led him away to Babylon. But while in deep distress, Manasseh sought the Lord his God and sincerely humbled himself before the God of his ancestors. And when he prayed, the Lord listened to him and was moved by his request. So the Lord brought Manasseh back to Jerusalem and to his kingdom. Then Manasseh finally realized that the Lord alone is God! 2 Chronicles 33:10-13 (NLT)


Amazingly, some young men did choose to reign with integrity and justice, tearing down the idols of the past. Who are you choosing to follow? But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. 1 John 4:4 (NLT) We know that God is our victor in the battle of life, not the enemy. Yet daily, I must choose to take the reins of leadership in my world and follow Him. This is the heritage I want to leave to my little ones!

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Afraid?

Who are those who fear the Lord? He will show them the path they should choose. They will live in prosperity, and their children will inherit the land. Psalm 25:12-13 (NLT)



As I pedaled in the gym watching the morning show playing on the TV's overhead, in the space of twenty minutes I saw one heart rending story after another – from breast cancer to the slaughter of an innocent family. One of the girls on the treadmill commented, "I sure would like to see some good stories!" How true! Life can be so daily and often, the tedium and frustrations drown out any joy or hope. We all desire to be doing work that is either fulfilling or making a difference. But sometimes we have no control and our world crashes around us. Illness, death, job loss, rebellious children, or divorce may strike when you least expect it. These are the types of circumstances when more time, money, or effort will not change one thing. Then comes the big test – do we trust God or not? The verses in today's Psalm give us a clue to the solution; we must fear the Lord and He will guide us. This is not fear as in to be afraid, but rather to regard God with reverence and awe. We have to get out of the way…it is not all about us. We must believe that we can trust Him with our life and that of our family, especially when circumstances are beyond our control. David, the author of these verses, had his share of life's problems but in the end he was called a man after God's own heart. That is the kind of person that I want to be…in the midst of the turmoil of life, I put one foot after another following Him. Anyone behind me?

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Body Blows

Life's body blows hit when we least expect it. The reasons don't even matter yet the sting is searing, our breath is labored, and we wonder if we can go on. Where is God in all of this? Why now and why me? I found this poem in Streams in the Desert and it gave me comfort and a reminder that the path, at times, will be muddy and hard to see – but He is there!

If we could see…

If we could see beyond today
As God can see;
If all the clouds should roll away,
The shadows flee;
O'er present griefs we would not fret.
Each sorrow we would soon forget,
For many joys are waiting yet
For you and me.

If we could see beyond today
As God doth know;
Why dearest treasures pass away
And tears must flow;
And why the darkness leads to light,
Why dreary paths will soon grow bright;
Some day life's wrongs will be made right,
Faith tells us so.

"If we could see, if we could know,"
We often say,
But God in love a veil doth throw
Across our way;
We cannot see what lies before,
And so we cling to Him the more,
He leads us till this life if o'er
Trust and obey.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Do I know you?

Last week the grandgirlies followed us home to Arizona to spend some time with us after working at Dad's house. During the week, I started playing a game with Allie, my youngest who is 2 1/2. While waiting for our food in a restaurant one day, she came up to me and said,

"Nana! Nana?"
"Do I know you?" I answered.
"Yes," she giggled.
"Oh, is your name Susie?" I asked.
"No, Nana, it is Allie G!"
"Is your name Betsy?"
She replied a little louder, "It is Allie G!"
"Oh I know you, you are my youngest granddaughter, Allie, and I love you!" I replied.
"Yes, Nana!" she giggled, gave me a big smile, and snuggled up for a hug.

This exchange with my sweet girl reminds me of the story of the Good Shepherd in John 10: I am the good shepherd; I know my own sheep, and they know me, just as my Father knows me and I know the Father…They will listen to my voice, and there will be one flock with one shepherd. I am certain that my Heavenly Father knows my name, in fact He even numbers the hair on my head. He knows me intimately because He made me. But to be a daughter in the family of the King, I realized at a young age the need for a remedy for the sins that separated me from Him and accepted the gift of salvation through Jesus. Just as I know Allie is my granddaughter and part of my family, she knows that my voice means trust, safety, protection, and love; she can sit on my lap any time she wants to. How wonderful to know that I have that same access and security with my Father and when I need Him, He is just a prayer away. And, I am sure that I can sit on His lap, too!

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Stuff!

Regard (treat with honor, due obedience, and courtesy) your father and mother, that your days may be long in the land the Lord your God gives you. Exodus 20:12 (Amplified Bible)

Forty years of stuff! This last week was filled with sorting, keeping, throwing, and giving away all kinds of things from my Dad's house. With the passing of my mom, he has decided that moving to an assisted living facility is the best alternative but that means the dreaded word, move—and stuff—and judgment calls. His mind is sharp but his body fails him due to severe arthritis and macular degeneration making it necessary for him to depend on us to make those hard choices and do the work. I know it was very difficult for him to watch us dismantle his home and see bags carted out of the house, and we only cleaned out closets! For you see, Dad, a military man for 20 years plus a career as a civil engineer, made decisions every day. I am finding that taking on the role of parent to an aging parent is one of the hardest. As difficult as this is for me, I can only imagine how tough this must be for him, a very independent man. Yet, I am thankful that he allows me to help. As unprepared as I feel for this task, I know that God is there to guide me. While there, we visited several nice housing options but the final place was just what we all were hoping to find. It had the people, amenities, and location that encouraged us that Dad will be comfortable and well cared for, and he is excited about the choice. However, once more, we wait because the type of room he wants is not available—at least for now. Maybe that phone will ring tomorrow—or not—but I know we can trust that our Heavenly Father knows just the right situation for my dad. And the timing will be perfect!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Dry Brook

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.  Hebrews 11:1 (NLT)

An Old Testament story records that when God declared a drought on the land of Israel, He did not forget his prophet, Elijah. He sent him to the Kerith Brook where He fed him by way of ravens and instructed him to drink from the brook. I would imagine that Elijah thought it was a pretty easy life, considering what was going on around him, with fresh food brought morning and evening and water flowing right next to his camp. Yet, as the drought continued, the water began to evaporate and the water slowed to a trickle. It happened after a while that the brook dried up, because there was no rain in the land. 1 Kings 17:7 (NASB) Now, if I were the camper, I would have already explored Plan B – just in case. This is the part where faith comes into the story. Faith occurs when you can't see two steps in front of you and God seems to have given you impossible instructions. Water is essential for life, especially in the arid land of Israel…but Elijah didn't panic, he waited. During stressful times, I often find myself wanting to take control and make my own way of escape. I may even have a little faith if there is a small inkling of a way out. Yet, God's plan is not accomplished through my flimsy schemes or tiny faith. His way is always better...I just have to wait. The story continues and the Lord sent Elijah to Zaraphat to live with a widow where more miracles occurred and this woman witnessed the power of God. The woman said to Elijah, "I see it all now—you are a holy man. When you speak, God speaks—a true word!" 1 Kings 17:24 (The Message) She saw that Elijah lived by his faith in the one true God. Remember, the ultimate result of faith is that we glorify God so that others may come to Him. The brook may dry up, but be assured that God is faithful. Wait!

Monday, July 9, 2007

Hold Still!

I ordered the devotional Streams in the Desert, which seemed appropriate now that I live in the desert. It was first published in 1925 so many of the daily readings have the old-fashioned words, phrases, and formats. It has taken me awhile to fully appreciate the beauty and flow of words so common in that day, especially since I have adopted the shorthand of the computer technology in most of my letters and notes. While that may be faster and more direct in our world of speed, I believe something has been lost in the transition. The following poem spoke to me today; maybe it is just what you need, too. Remember that all God asks of us is to be willing, He will take care of the rest.

Hold Still!

Pain's furnace heat within me quivers,
God's breath upon the flame doth blow;
And all my heart in anguish shivers
And trembles at the fiery glow;
And yet I whisper, "As God will!"
And in the hottest fire hold still.

He comes and lays my heart, all heated,
On the hard anvil, minded so
Into His own fair shape to beat it
With his great hammer, blow on blow;
And yet I whisper, "As God will!"
And at His heaviest blows hold still.

He takes my softened heart and beats it;
The sparks fly off at every blow;
He turns it o'er and o'er and heats it,
And lets it cool, and makes it glow;
And yet I whisper, "As God will!"
And in His mighty hand hold still.

Why should I murmur? for the sorrow
Thus only longer-lived would be;
The end may come, and will tomorrow,
When God has done His work in me;
So I say trusting, "As God will!"
And, trusting to the end, hold still.

Julius Sturm

Friday, July 6, 2007

What a Map!

Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living.
Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord. Psalm 27:13-14 (NLT)

When I get ready for a trip, I want to know the most direct and fastest way to get to my destination, so I check the map. It is so much easier to do it on the computer rather than fighting with all the creases in a paper map. Paul knew that he wanted to go from Jerusalem to Rome but he certainly took a circuitous route…much of it unplanned. After being unjustly accused in Jerusalem by the Jewish religious leaders, he was taken for trial to Felix, the governor of Caesarea, the provincial capital for Judea. Yet, Felix almost toys with Paul as he questions him, bringing him back for an audience several times. Fear grips Felix as he listens to Paul and his coping strategy is procrastination. When two years had passed, Felix was succeeded by Porcius Festus, but because Felix wanted to grant a favor to the Jews, he left Paul in prison. Acts 24:27 (NIV) Two years! 730 days! Paul, a Roman citizen, was unjustly imprisoned all that time even though Felix knew the facts of the case. Why was this a good thing? One reason is that with Paul in protective custody, he is kept from the hands of Jews intent on his death. Second, he is given many opportunities to declare the gospel to Felix and his wife, Drusilla. And finally, while several Jewish leaders do hear his case, no one will render a verdict and he is sent to Rome for trial – implementing the divine plan of witnessing in Rome. So what difference does this make to me? During those seasons when life does not make sense and you want to hurry up the process, be assured that God is working out the details. Our finite perspective cannot begin to compare with the infinite knowledge and plans of the Savior. Paul would have missed many opportunities along the way if he had been following his map from mapquest. Two years! Take hope when the journey seems long with unplanned stops. We may not know what is going on in the unseen world, but God does. Be confident!

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

The Fourth

The Fourth of July is special day in our home, rather on the order of Christmas. We decorate the house, bring out the patriotic dishes, wear clothes that declare our love for our country, serve favorite and traditional food, and watch fireworks, declaring them the best ever. The terror manifested in the United Kingdom this week is a vivid display that freedom comes at an enormous cost. Our enemies will use any means to further their cause – even death. Their determination to take us down is why our young men and women are fighting daily, at their own peril, to keep us safe from harm. Our support and appreciation for them on this day of celebration is not only deserved but also required as an example to our children and grandchildren. Many schools no longer require the recitation of the Pledge of Allegiance. I remember my sweet granddaughter, Kate, only two at the time, saying the Pledge in front of about 40 moms. My heart swelled and tears glistened in many eyes as we listened to that tiny girl repeat those awesome words. We must never forget the lives sacrificed for the cause of freedom and if necessary, learn anew this simple exercise of our citizenship. Take a few moments to listen to the sketch by Red Skelton explaining the meaning of the Pledge of Allegiance to some children. We are one nation, under God, with liberty and justice for ALL. Enjoy the Fourth!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

She did what?

I am about halfway through reading the Bible in one year. Daily, the story of God's chosen people is woven into the tapestry of the whole picture—whether it is in the Old Testament, New Testament, or the Psalms. I am sure He knows how forgetful I am because I often think, "He just said the very same thing some verses back. What is wrong with these people, don't they get it?" Oh, He gets it—that is why the repetition. He wants us to pay attention, understand the importance of His words, and then DO something about it. The latest characters in the story are all the kings of Judah and Israel. Each one is introduced with the statement that they are either a good king or an evil king depending on their worship of the one true God. We get a snapshot of their life and times, whether in a period of peace or warfare, and finally, a declaration that all their deeds are recorded in The Book of the History of the Kinds of Israel (or Judah.) How would you like your entire life recorded for all of posterity to read? Would the reader wonder about you? Would someone think, "Wow, she sure was stubborn, forgetful, or even cruel! She didn't even try to follow God." Or would they find stories of kindness, love, and excellence before God? Taking it one step at a time following His Light? The kings of Judah and Israel made choices every day about whom to serve. They even had priests that censured them for their disobedience and tried to give good counsel but many would not listen. Would you prefer the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates? Or will it be the gods of the Amorites in whose land you now live? But as for me and my family, we will serve the Lord." Joshua 24:15 (NLT) Take a few moments to reflect on your life. Are you listening to good counsel, reading the Word, and choosing to serve our Heavenly Father? May your biography be filled with stories of hope and obedience. I pray that my granddaughters will know that I choose God!

Monday, June 25, 2007

The Stopwatch

Advance planning does not work at our house, so I made a spur of the moment decision to attend the SheSpeaks Conference sponsored by Proverbs 31 Ministries this past weekend in Charlotte, NC. And, I am so glad that I did. 405 women from all over the United States converged for training, inspiration, and fellowship. This conference included tracks for both writers and speakers and I chose to be placed in a speakers evaluation group with eleven other women. Part of the evaluation included two different talks with assigned topics and time limits. As we began, our leader reminded us that as speakers we must respect the given time limits and to do otherwise would be rude and unprofessional. However, I figured a couple of extra minutes would not matter. Wrong! I had just warmed up and was barely halfway through the first speech when the stopwatch beeped and my time was up. I was so embarrassed. I spent most of the second night doing a rewrite because I wanted to avoid that buzzer. I breathed a sigh of relief as I sat down at the end of my second talk–satisfied that I had given it my best. And, no buzzer and a thumbs up from my speaking buddies gave me some hope. But the best part was a good evaluation from our leader. Our Heavenly Father gives us the same advice in Hebrews 12:11, No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way. Disciplined living requires commitment to the rules, even when it is hard. Just ask an athlete, dancer, musician, or student. Sometimes, we rationalize that just a little fudging won't matter. But it is often just that small detour from the set path that takes us down the wrong road so that we miss out on the rewards of all our hard work. If you reject discipline, you only harm yourself; but if you listen to correction, you grow in understanding. Proverbs 15:32 (NLT) I gained a tremendous amount of information this weekend and I proved to myself that I could do the hard thing. But I also learned that I could not do it by myself…God was there to guide me and give me the ability to succeed. It was just the kind of challenge that I needed to help me grow.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Bits and Bytes

The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him. Nahum 1:7 (NLT)

The Internet is an amazing piece of technology. I have tools that let me track the location in the world of people who read my blog recording hits from every continent in the world. Email enables me to communicate with the click of a button to one person or a whole list. I now connect with loved ones on a more regular basis or make contact with people that I have never met. Just last week, God brought a gift of Himself through a woman that does not know me but contacted me regarding a conference we will both be attending later this week. I asked her to pray that my husband's health would stabilize so that I could leave without worry. She replied with a word from Scripture that she had read that morning: Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear. Psalm 112:6-8. Another good friend also sent me her support and prayers during this difficult week and included verses from Psalm 41. I have found that when we are in distress, God is faithful to be there for us and often with a touch from another person. I call it, "God with skin on." I am so thankful that He gave me hope with the emails from these dear women. But the best thing is that not only is He there when we are stressed but also when we rejoice. He is our biggest cheerleader. When we obey, He blesses us. And when we sin, He forgives us when we ask Him. I know that whatever circumstance I find myself in, the Creator of the universe will be there and provide just what I need…and sometimes it is with bits and bytes.

Friday, June 15, 2007

A Possibility

Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God. It cost God plenty to get you out of that dead-end, empty-headed life you grew up in. He paid with Christ's sacred blood, you know. He died like an unblemished, sacrificial lamb. And this was no afterthought. Even though it has only lately—at the end of the ages—become public knowledge, God always knew he was going to do this for you. It's because of this sacrificed Messiah, whom God then raised from the dead and glorified, that you trust God, that you know you have a future in God. 1 Peter 1:18-21 (The Message)


A friend invited me to lunch this week to celebrate my birthday. We tried a great new restaurant situated in a lovely outdoor shopping mall. After lunch, we wandered through the shops looking at clothes, shoes, and stuff for the grandkids. As we approached one particular gift store, I raved to her about all the pretty things in it. She was unfamiliar with it so we spent several minutes oohing and ahhing over the various styles and designs of the different collections in the store. As I reached to the back to pick up some decorative napkins, I accidentally knocked a small ceramic cactus off the shelf. Of course, it broke…not into smithereens but shards of the pottery from the top of the cactus crumbled in a pile on the floor. I immediately took it back to the sales desk and showed them the remains of the piece. She responded with the price and asked for payment. Before, I could say a word, get out my wallet, or do anything, my friend said, "I will pay for it." And she did. Nothing I said would persuade her otherwise and I felt terrible. Now that it was hers, we looked it over and realized that the intended purpose of this little cactus was to be placed over a votive candle since it was covered with small holes. Also, with the broken pieces at the top and back, it could be nestled high enough among other things hiding the imperfections. But this gracious lady said to me, "I will use it in one of my talks to the ladies. It will be a perfect example of God's love." She saw possibility in the brokenness. What a perfect example of how God sees us, always looking beyond our futile attempts to glue ourselves back together. Or, we even try to stand just right so the misaligned parts don't show. But, we will never be flawless until God puts us back together. His love for us was shown in the cross when all that sin and brokenness was stamped Paid in Full – just like my friend did for me at the store. Now, our intended purpose can be fulfilled and the light of Jesus will shine through us to those around when we tell our story of healing and wholeness. Don't let brokenness stop you from taking that next step along your intended path but rejoice in God's love. May the lyrics from a favorite children's song, "I am a Promise," encourage you today:
I am a promise
I am a possibility
I am a promise with a capital "P"
I am a great big bundle of potentiality
And I am learnin' to hear God's voice
And I am tryin' to make the right choice
I am a promise to be anything God wants me to be.





Sunday, June 10, 2007

Thirsty?

Desert gardening is proving to be a challenge. I never claimed to have a green thumb but growing plants in California was a snap for two reasons: I was familiar with the kinds of plants that grow well and the weather was more temperate. We are close to celebrating one year in the southern Arizona desert and in that time we have had temps as high as 118° and as low as the mid 20's with two inches of snow on the ground. Now, that is hard on plants! It does not help that I have chosen to use a Mediterranean type of greenery rather than the typical desert drought-tolerant choices. But I like color, flowers, and I loved Italy. Extremes in weather challenge even the hardiest plant. Yet, the heat is absolutely intolerant of any failure of my drip system. Without water, all the time, care, and attention are useless. I can talk to my plants all day but they are not going to revive because of my few words. Maybe, that is why Jesus used water as a means to talk with people when walking along those ancient dusty paths of Israel. Remember the story of the woman at the well who met Jesus and volunteered to draw water for him to drink? He provided more that just words by offering her living water but she did not get his point. She was listening with her earthly ears but He was speaking heavenly truth. Jesus replied, Anyone who drinks this water will soon become thirsty again. But those who drink the water I give will never be thirsty again. It becomes a fresh, bubbling spring within them, giving them eternal life. John 4:13-14 (NLT) Yet, by the time they had finished their conversation, the woman ran off to tell her friends of this Man she had met and the wonderful of gift of life that she had received. It is easy to take for granted the benefits of water in our lives -- both for our natural bodies and our spiritual ones. But when the withering heat of trials, temptations, or hardships threatens to destroy us, drink the Living Water that refreshes and sustains. God is not stingy with his water like I am with my drip system. If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. Rivers of living water will brim and spill out of the depths of anyone who believes in me this way, just as the Scripture says. John 7:38 (The Message) Thirsty?

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

March-2-3-4

I slowed down to watch a family of quail scurry across the street in front of my car. Mom was leading the troop of seven babies with Dad bringing up the rear. I watched her scout out the safest route and imagined her telling each one to hurry up while Dad protected their backs from danger. It occurred to me that if either quail parent had been missing, those babies might not have made it. There is a lot of discussion on the relative value of fathers in the home now that single women are choosing to have children. Obviously, children need a loving mother, but the best situation for boys and girls is to have both a mother and father – just like those baby quail. I have watched single mothers as they struggle with the various roles that fall on them. They encounter exhausting and frustrating challenges — often with no relief in sight. We no longer live in the same little town with grandmothers, aunts, sisters, or cousins to call on for help. The demands of both a job and home require more hours than are in a day, especially if you want some sleep. But the physical is just one aspect of raising children. It is also important to remember that children learn very different skills, roles, and emotions from each parent. This presents a huge challenge for a single parent to fill in the missing gaps. I know many women do not choose single parenting but divorce and death have left many as the sole caregiver for their children. It is tough—in fact, it is more than tough! When discouragement hits, remember that God has promised to be the Father to the fatherless. Psalm 68:5 He knows the dangers that your little one or even your teens will encounter and promises to protect them. Like an eagle that rouses her chicks and hovers over her young, so he spread his wings to take them up and carried them safely on his pinions. Deuteronomy 32:11 (NLT) Parenting is the biggest challenge we face because the results last for generations. So, Moms and Dads, be the front and rear guard for the family God has given you. Don't forget that you are not alone—Your Heavenly Father is just a prayer away. He will protect YOUR back.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Feel the Pain

“Only if I can feel the pain can I feel anything.“

While cleaning my desk, I ran across a business card on which I had written this phrase. I don’t remember what the magazine article was about but I was struck with the impact of the conclusion. Years ago, I read a story about a doctor that ministered to lepers in India. Infected patients lose fingers and toes because their nerve endings have been destroyed as the disease progresses resulting in loss of all feeling. This causes burns from a hot stove or pan, cuts from a knife with only the blood indicating a problem, even the horror of gnawed toes by rodents goes unnoticed. Pain is good; it is necessary. Pain is an indicator that something is wrong and needs attention. As we trudge through life, some days it feels like we have hit every bump and rock in the way. Battered and bruised, we look for a way out without correcting our compass or consulting the map. We continue to run into obstacles and are lost – and in pain. How do we handle pain? Pain is the constant companion for athletes as they train. No pain, no gain. Stretching the body to its limit and then pushing it even further causes the muscles to grow strong and able to do more. Emotional pain with a friend hurts, too, but it lets us know that we need to look at what is going on in the relationship. Avoidance, the easy answer, will never solve the problem but working through it and making necessary changes will often make the relationship even stronger. No one likes the pain resulting from discipline – whether it is my granddaughters or me. But the benefits of this discipline are for my good. In Hebrews 12:11 it says, No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way. (NLT) God does not want us drift into more trouble but urges us to choose a better way just like any good parent does with his willful child. I have experienced emotional pain that was so great that I did not want to go on. Yet, I learned that if I ignore the pain, my heart becomes dull and I am useless to my Father. The lesson for all of us is to be willing to accept that discipline and feel the pain that cleanses us and makes us useable for His purpose. My prayer is that I never waste pain – I always learn from it.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Decoration Day

Memorial Day, originally called Decoration Day, is a day of remembrance for those who have died in our nation's service. In doing a little research about the origins and history, I discovered that to help re-educate and remind Americans of the true meaning of Memorial Day, the "National Moment of Remembrance" resolution was passed in May, 2000, which asks that at 3 p.m. local time, for all Americans "To voluntarily and informally observe in their own way a Moment of remembrance and respect, pausing from whatever they are doing for a moment of silence or listening to Taps." I want to thank those close to me: my dad, who is visiting with us for several days, served in both World War II and the Korean Conflict, Mark served in the Army during the Viet Nam war, and many other friends. And I also think of so many of the sons and daughters of this nation that are now stationed in places of conflict all over the world. It is both fitting and appropriate that we take one day a year to honor those who have fallen and those who put their lives on the line for us today. The next time you see a member of our armed services, stop and thank them, shake their hand, pay for their lunch; let them know that you appreciate their willingness to serve to protect our freedom. Let’s make every day Memorial Day! You must show your appreciation to all who serve so well. 1 Corinthians 16:18b (NLT)

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Keep Walking

While waiting for my car to be washed, I picked up a copy of Newsweek because the front cover caught my attention. The lead article was entitled The Military: Faith Under Fire. I was curious because I now have a good friend who served as an army Chaplain for 20 years during the Viet Nam era and this article spoke of the challenges facing today's chaplains in the current war on terror. It detailed the initial excitement of an Army chaplain as he followed God into this ministry, his deployment to Iraq, and his encounter with constant death and discouragement of both the soldiers and himself. He shares this passage as to where he is today with his faith: I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. Psalm 40:1-2. David wrote these verses in the Psalms experiencing firsthand the fear, doubt, and frustration of being pursued by an aggressive enemy, Saul. Yet, he knew that God would lift him out of the pit, mud, and mire to stand on firm ground. How many times do we struggle in our own circumstances? Where is God? How could this be happening to me? Will I survive? The young chaplain learned to be blunt with God and in that communication began taking steps back to real faith. We can do the same. God has not promised us a life without struggle, pain, death, or despair. We can even yell, scream, cry, and vent our anger with Him. Be assured that He will listen and has promised in Deuteronomy 6:31, The LORD your God will always be at your side, and he will never abandon you. (CEV) Whether the circumstances change or not, He is there to pick us up, scrape off the mud, give us a hug, and set our feet on the straight path. Be encouraged, my friend,…and keep walking.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Control Mode

We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives the right answer. People may be pure in their own eyes, but the Lord examines their motives. Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:1-3 (NLT)


Perfect weather! Perfect accommodations! Perfect company! Perfect celebration! It was a wonderful week of family, sun, and fun. Each one enjoys going to Mexico because there is nothing to do but relax. You could find everyone, from the grandgirlies to Papa, in their favorite spots each day (pool for the girls and the lounge chair on the patio for Papa!) Yet, just like the storybook, all good things must come to an end. Being a technologically savvy family, we all stopped by the business center to print out our boarding passes the day before we left. Suddenly, our perfect vacation screamed to a halt. An error in the booking process left one mommy and three little girls with no flight home. Not to worry. We marched over to the concierge and an hour later, everyone had a flight home. Unfortunately, the new flight required mommy and the three girls to move to another hotel and leave a day later with 4-hour layover in LA before arriving in San Francisco. The girlies were thrilled to spend another day at the pool but it was not exactly what we all had planned. As I thought about it later, I realized that I had jumped back into my take-control-of-the-situation mode and never once stopped to ask God for help and direction. Gracious Father that He is, we found a solution but I know He would have preferred that we check in with Him and ask for wisdom and guidance. "Forgive me Lord, for running ahead of You. Thank you for checking my spirit and reminding me that your plans are always for our best. Stop me the next time before I lurch into control-mode and steer me onto Your straight path...your grateful Daughter."

Friday, May 11, 2007

One Year

Blogging for Flashlight just turned a corner and is now into its second year. When I started posting last year, after attending the Writer's Conference at Mt. Hermon, I had no idea whether I could do it, if I would enjoy it, or if I could be consistent. But God has shown me that the everyday events in my life may help someone else when I share how He was there in the midst. It has not been an easy year. Moving, Mark's health, and the death of my mother have each had an impact not only on me but all who know and love me. The blog has been a tool to share the strength and courage that God has given me through it all with those I know and those who have clicked in from as far away as Australia, Italy, Singapore, and Argentina, to name a few. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 2 Corinthians 1:4 (NLT). It was daunting to even think of starting a blog but Mark gave me encouragement from the first day and has been my able nagger to keep at it. As a writer that sends out thoughts into the impersonal cyberworld, your comments confirm that someone is actually reading them. Is there a new opportunity in your life that seems impossible or at least a real stretch? Jesus said, "The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy seed, say, you would tell this mountain, 'Move!' and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn't be able to tackle." Matthew 17:20 (The Message) You CAN do it. You have come to a fork in the road of life where you have to make a choice. One way seems easier and less threatening while the other seems to have nothing but rocks and boulders in the path. Trusting God for his direction is the only option on which road to travel. Remember that He has made you for a specific purpose to complete His plan and bring Him glory. Your part is to take that first step – be willing – and He will be right beside you to lead you to new joys and accomplishments and cheer for you along the way.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

"Deliberate Trust"

Sometimes it is better not to reinvent the wheel. I subscribe to an online devotional for women. In my email this morning I received this weeks' offering which echoed my thoughts to so well that I want to share a portion of it with you:

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine." Isaiah 55:8


It's not always easy to trust God. When I see where God seems to be leading me, I can usually figure out a way to get there. But it's seldom the path that God has chosen. My path is quick and easy. God's path is full of unknowns. It's difficult to "set down my map" and follow God. I like my path. Sure, there might be some struggles along the way, but it will get me from point A to point B in a short amount of time. Unfortunately, I won't be happy, and I won't have become all that God desires for me to be. I think I know the way to go, but only God really knows. I have to trust him.

I can only begin to imagine what God has in store for my life. I can't tell where he is sending me, but I travel in faith. I'm at a point in my life where God has called me to take a step of faith. I am learning to trust him day by day. It is definitely an adventure! There are days I start to fill with anxiety because I can't see where he is leading me. I know in my head that his ways are not my ways, but it is hard to believe him. I pray for peace and faith each day.

Now is the time to come to Jesus and trust him. Let go of the need to know the way. He is the Way. Allow him to lead you, even if you can only see a step at a time. For his thoughts are not our thoughts and his ways aren't our ways—they are better than we can ever imagine.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Attitude Adjustment

I chuckle to myself when I hear my daughter tell one of the grandgirlies that she needs an “attitude adjustment.” I know that this little one has probably been whining and finally stepped on the last nerve of her mother and consequences are just ahead. Depending on the situation, there may be instant obedience … or not. The same holds true for all of us. I remember an attitude change that I needed not too many weeks after my first baby was born. All was well while my mother was there to take care of both of us but the day she left, my world turned upside down. Nothing seemed to get done and I was very frustrated. “When are things going to get back to normal?” I wondered. I fought each day’s schedule with that as a goal. After about six weeks of this nonsense, as I was rocking that sweet little girl after the 2 AM feeding, I suddenly realized that we would just have to make a “new” normal. Things were never going to get back to the way they were. Life as I knew it was irrevocably changed and I needed an attitude adjustment. The following day’s agenda was still just as demanding but I chose not to let it get me down. I learned to enjoy that sweet baby and take each day as a gift. I don’t mean to say that I never have frustrating moments and wish for the peace and quiet of earlier times because over the years, I have noticed that that we still encounter “new normals”: children in school, children out of school, new job, empty nests, retirement, moving, illness. Each change is a test and requires patience, energy, planning, and trust. But, the challenges of life level out and become manageable if we trust God to lead us rather than trying to control them ourselves. Our Father is right there to encourage us, smooth out the rough places, and plant our feet on a firm path. So take a walk with an attitude of thankfulness and love and see what good things are right around the corner. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:6 (NLT)

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Tomorrow? Next Week?

If you knew that next week would be your final week on earth, what would you do? My life, prior to this year, has been relatively untouched by death. God has blessed me with good health along with those closest to me. However, in the last ten months, Mark has been to the hospital via 911 on two occasions and my mother died suddenly as the result of a fall. Life is fragile and uncertain. Even as we read in the Psalms there are no guarantees: Seventy years are given to us! Some even live to eighty. But even the best years are filled with pain and trouble; soon they disappear, and we fly away. Psalm 90:10 (NLT) Maybe an upcoming significant birthday is another reason for some reflection and introspection. So, back to the original question. After some pondering, I know that I would like to be able to have written that she always tried to do what was right. Family, friends, and country – those who know me best – would understand that my loyalty and love was steadfast. My choice would be to leave with no regrets – no unsaid apologies, no hard feelings, and always expressing my love. And, I want to take the risk to experience some of those things that only seem like a dream – publishing a book, speaking at a conference, watching my granddaughters grow and carry the mantle to do greater things. Who are the people who need to hear from you? What are the areas of risk that you have pulled back from due to fear? What fun things are you missing because you are in a rut? Each day is a blessing from our Father that cannot be taken for granted. Grab hold and live it to the fullest. I am not a huge country music fan but I think Tim McGraw got it right in the lyrics of his song, Live Like You Were Dyin':

He said I was in my early 40‘s,
With a lot of life before me,
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin‘ at the x-rays,
Talkin‘ ‘bout the options and talkin‘ ‘bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.
How‘s it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,

I went sky divin‘,
I went rocky mountain climbin‘,
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I‘ve been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin‘.

He said I was finally the husband,
That most the time I wasn‘t.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin‘ fishing,
Wasn‘t such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I‘d do
If I could do it all again.
And then.

I went sky divin‘,
I went rocky mountain climbin‘,
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I‘ve been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin‘.

Like tomorrow was a gift
and you‘ve got eternity
to think about what to do with it
What did ya do with it?
What did I do with it?
What would I do with it?

Sky divin‘,
I went rocky mountain climbin‘,
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fu Manchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin‘.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin‘.

To live like you were dyin‘.
To live like you were dyin‘.
To live like you were dyin‘.
To live like you were dyin‘.


I just read a quote from Tony Snow, the press secretary for President Bush who is suffering from a recurrance of colon cancer. He said, "God hasn't promised us tomorrow, but he has promised us eternity." Right on!

And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. Philippians 1:20-21 (NLT)